The illusion of yesterday

This should start with the question. What is the difference between a dream that you saw last night and what had happened yesterday?

Both can't be changed. But one of them matters right!!!
Well it's all a matter of perception. I think yesterday doesn't matter. What happened yesterday has happened. You can't change that. Don't sulk and don't try to hang on to it or don't rejoice in the victory that you had yesterday. Cos when the day is done for all that is left is you and everyone else. Everyone in ground zero, no winners and no losers but waiting for the race of the now.

If you let the things of the past weigh you down all you will be left with is a burden. It will be like the scary dream that you saw last night in which you saw that you would be eaten by that giant monster the moment you step out the next morning.

So begin a new day and live like you want to. Enjoy, take responsibilities, talk, talk a lot, listen, listen a lot, approach the person you wanted to talk to but weren't able to in the last few days. 

Dont just sit there or you will loose the race of today.

 

Pratham's Path

Prologue- Satya and Kali

The plan of cosmos is very simple yet very difficult to understand. Everything mortal exists between these two and only these two.Satya and Kali.
Satya and Kali are like the two opposite peaks of a curve and in between lies the universe and everything else. Countless times has it happened that the world has been created and destroyed. These two have always existed irrespective of everything else.
God created them with equal perseverance and dedication. Over the centuries however Kali gained power and the balance of the great universe has been disturbed. This is why whenever Kali is uncontrollable God intervenes and restores the balance. Whenever this happens we call it the "Avataran".
For "Avataran" God descends to earth in human form  born as a normal human being not very different from others.  As it is written in Gita the power of God is like being illuminated by a thousand splendid suns. Such power if witnessed in its entirety by this world, would instantly annihilate it. The parents of such "avatars" are hence specifically chosen. A special set of parents have always been chosen who are truly noble in their heart who are so pure that they can withstand the minute power of God which he sends in the form of an "Avatar". The power of "avatar" is so immense that if normal individuals conceived them,then they would die being incapable of sustaining that huge power within them.
Seeing this "Kali" devised a devious plan. It made the soul of every man and every woman so corrupt and so weak that they could never sustain the power of God. Hence the world slowly got immersed in darkness and this era was called as KALI YUG.
Satya was helpless and weak due to the power of "Kali". It could do nothing but watch in utter horror as the beautiful creation was heading towards something terribly grotesque. The only solution that was left was to bring all of it to an end and start all over again. To eradicate every thing once and for all and begin a new. In a desperate attempt to restore the balance Satya asked God for his avatar and God gave it to him(For simplicity lets call it the Avatar Crystal). But there was still a problem as to how the avatar could  be born as there was no one  pure and noble left to conceive it.
Upon finding about this, Kali tried to take the "Avatar crystal" away from Satya.  They had a huge clash over the possession of the crystal and during this battle the crystal broke into several fragments. The pieces were  scattered  all throughout the world.


Synopsis
The first time he knows he has power
Our protagonist is Rajiv(Rajiv) a young boy of  16. A boy who has always had issues being raised in the orphanage.Mr. Aadesh is the father figure who takes care of Rajiv. Rajiv has only one friend the very talkative Ganesh.  So Rajiv and Ganesh always hang out, with Ganesh always blabbering about something or the other. One day  Rajiv gets irritated and starts cursing Ganesh and everything he has been given in his life. He runs away from there and returns to his room and sleeps. The next morning he is moving out alone in the neighbourhood while he watches several goons beating a person and snatching his wallet he is scared so he doesnot do anything and just watches from a distance. When one of the goons notices him he runs away and they start chasing him.
He evades them and hides, the goons search for sometime and then move away. He returns to the orphanage cursing himself for being so scared and so weak. That day he has a high fever so Ganesh comes and takes care of him in the night despite the curses Rajiv had said.  Rajiv sees this but doesnot say anything.
Next morning when he wakes up he finds that Ganesh is sleeping beside his bed. He wakes up slowly and moves out again to the river side and sits there. He again sees those goons coming so he is scared and hides again. He watches as they go into Mr Aadesh's quarters and force him out beating him.(They have come to collect rent or someother issue.)  One goon notices that he is hiding and catches hold of him. They bring him out and start beating him too. Out of somewhere Ganesh arrives he is also caught but he tries to defend although he is very weak. He still tries hard and manages to free Rajiv. Rajiv starts running while Ganesh stays. Rajiv asks him why does he try even though he cant win. He says he would not run as he has to try even though he would lose. Shortly after this conversation Ganesh and Rajiv are again re captured by the goons and they start beating Ganesh. Looking at this Rajiv starts sweating more and more. The goon holding him feels the temperature rising and releases Rajiv's temperature rises he starts glowing and his colour as if he is on fire.
Everyone becomes scared and starts running but he is uncontrollable and starts chasing them. he beats everyone with them being unconscious and then finally returns to where Ganesh and on reaching there he collapses. As he collapses he becomes normal again.

Realisation
When Rajiv comes to his senses he again sees Ganesh lying beside him. He sees him and tears start rolling from his face and he starts crying. At the same time Ganesh wakes up and Rajiv hugs him tightly. Rajiv asks how did he get there. Ganesh says that Mr. Aadesh brought them here and that he was taking care of them. Just then Mr.Aadesh comes and asks Ganesh to leave and take some rest. Ganesh leaves.
Aadesh sits beside Rajiv and asks him how does he feel. Rajiv keeps quite. Then he asks what is happening to him? Aadesh tells him the story of his origin and who he really is which is Satya in human form. After knowing all this Rajiv asks what is he supposed to do?? Aadesh says it is for him to find out what he has to do. Life is made of choices and he has to choose his own path. Every path will have its own benifits and failures but he has to choose. Coz as he had awakened his powers, there are others too and they are going to come for him. The one to gather all powers will be the true "Avatar". And in him will rest the fate of this world. And that they are going to come for him. Rajiv listens to all of it and says why didnt he tell this to him earlier. Aadesh says would he have believed him if he had told him that. Rajiv says he doesnot want his friends to get hurt and that he would protect them come what may.
Aadesh asks him how does he expect to do that. He couldn't control himself and at this stage he would be more of a problem than protecting his friends. Aadesh says that the only way that he can expect his friends to be safe is for him to train for the difficult times ahead and know his role in it. Rajiv thinks about Ganesh and thinks that it is the best thing to do.
The next day Aadesh calls his friend Kartik. Kartik takes away Rajiv to start his training. Rajiv bids Ganesh goodbye and says he will come back soon.
 
Three Years Later
Ganesh has just got into the national college of science and technology. He has grown into a very bright student. The first day of college and he is calm and composed even though he has to give  a speech representing  the freshers batch as he was the topper in the entrance exam. So he goes upto dias in the auditorium when his name is announced. Meanwhile a dark figure is watching him from the shadows. When Ganesh is finished with his speech everyone claps while he gives a huge grin.
Every one moves to their rooms while the shadowy figure is following Ganesh. Ganesh looks back but finds no one there and he just moves faster and runs to reach his room and reaches it just in time while the shadow in pursuit follows him. He closes the door and thinks he is safe. But then someone knocks on the door he is so scared that he doesnot open the door and then the knocking stops and instead the door knob starts turning and it opens slowly Ganesh is scared and starts shouting. The shadow moves fast and places his hand over his mouth as he switches the light on. Its Pratham

Reunion Of Friends and a new beginning
Ganesh recognises Rajiv who has grown and now sports long hair. He asks him how he has been and where has he been for so many years. Rajiv says he will explain that later but Ganesh starts telling about his life. They fall asleep midway while talking.  Next morning they wake up and head off to college. They find their class and sit somewhere in the middle. The teacher who comes for the classes is the same Mr Kartik who had adopted Rajiv. Ganesh looks in disbelief and looks at Rajiv who gives a crooked smile. Raijv says that he has been here all this time with Mr Karthik. They are interrupted when all of a sudden they hear a knock. As they look at where it originated from a sweet, melodic voice asks if she could get inside the class. Its a girl who is late for the class. When inquired by the professor who she is? She replies that she is also a fresher and her name is Rajivini. Mr Karthik asks her to find a place and sit. She hurriedly walks and comes and sits beside Ganesh. The class then commences and Ganesh is all busy noting every thing that Mr Karthik has to offer, while Rajiv keeps on staring at Rajivini.When the class is over Mr Karthik calls Rajivini to his office. Rajiv asks Ganesh to come with him so he can introduce him to Mr Karthik.
When they reach to Mr Karthik's cabin he is talking with Rajivini. Ganesh knocks but Rajiv just strolls inside the room pulling Ganesh along with him. He introduces Ganesh and says he is the topper and his roommate. Ganesh greets Mr Karthik. Mr Karthik looks at Rajiv who gives a huge grin and then at Ganesh and they start talking while Rajivini is standing there.
After they are finished talking Karthik asks them to leave along with Rajivini and asks her not to be late. Rajiv says its her first day. After they come out of the cabin. The three introduce each other. Rajivini asks how could he behave that way with Mr Karthik to which Rajiv replies he is his dad. They go for lunch together. The three become friends over the few days. And over the days the friend circle increases. Shruti, Rohan, Puja, Girish and Krishna also become friends and the fun begins for them.
One day Rohan and Girish come up with a plan to go camping. Everybody is excited. They decide to go for camping to the nearby forest. They reach the camp site and set up their base near a small lake. They have lots of fun during the day. At night everyone heads off to sleep. Late at night Ganesh feels like he has to pee so he wakes up. He walks a little away from the camp with a torch in his hand. While peeing he drops his torch and it gets turned off. Then he  hears a terrifying roar of a wild animal. He finds his torch and when he switches it on, a wild bear is standing just two feet away from him. With its jaws bared It tries to lunge towards him and Ganesh falls backwards in an attempt to evade the bear. Ganesh is so scared that he is not even able to call for help. The bear growls as it comes over Ganesh. Ganesh closes his eyes when suddenly someone arrives. A person none like what Ganesh had ever seen in his life. Like a devil or an angel he knew not,but glowing brightly as if on fire. He grabs the wild animal by its paws but does not hurt it,instead it starts to calm down. The Devil/Angel realises that the bear is actualy in a trap and was panicking because of that. He releases the trap and lets the bear out. The bear then silently walks away into the darkness of the forest.

The first act of heroism
Ganesh asks who he is and he does not say anything. He just looks straight ahead as if in deep thought. Ganesh again repeats his question but to no avail. The figure just signals him to stay quiet. While he waits somewhere a bullet is fired and suddenly the figure becomes all bright and the whole place lights as if it were day. With the sound of the gunshot everyone awakens and rushes to where Ganesh is standing.By then there could be heard lot more gunshots coming from different parts of the forest.The figure moves like lightening and saves everyone from the bullets.Moving with the same speed he rounds off all the people who were firing.It turns out they a group of poachers out on a night time hunt.He scares the poachers by lighting up even more and warns them of dire consequences if they come back to hunt again.Then he suddenly vanishes into thin air.No one knows what to believe and keep discussing what they all saw as they leave for their home town.They keep talking about the incident and are super excited that they saw a real super hero who came to their rescue.
Rajiv is quiet all this time and just looks at their expressions as Ganesh explains with great enthusiasm. They are happy that there is someone and discuss about its pros and cons.
Finally Rajivini says that he should really use its power for further causes just like superheroes do. It is futile to have so much power but not put it to proper use. Just like having  knowledge but not utilising it in the right way renders the knowledge gained worhtless.
Rajiv just smiles and thinks about it. May be I should really do it. He thinks and then starts his journey to become a hero.

Friends never say good bye by Elton john

There isn't much I haven't shared

With you along the road

And through it all there'd always be

Tomorrow's episode

Suddenly that isn't true

There's another avenue

Beckoning, the great divide

Ask no questions, take no side

Who's to say who's right or wrong

Whose course is braver run

Will ever be, ask one

What is done has been done for the best

Though the mist in my eyes might suggest

Just a little confusion about what I'll lose

But if I started over I know I would choose

The same joy the same sadness each step of the way

That fought me and tought me that friends never say

Never say goodbye

Never say goodbye

Never say goodbye

Never say goodbye

Suddenly that isn't true

There's another avenue

Beckoning, the great divide

I would choose

The same joy the same sadness each step of the way

That fought me and taught me that friends never say

Never say goodbye

Never say goodbye

Never say goodbye

Never say goodbye

I think this song will make it clear what is going on in my mind.

Honey why are you calling me so late?
It's kinda hard to talk right now
Honey why are you crying, is everything okay?
I gotta whisper ?cause I can't be too loud

Well, my girl's in the next room
Sometimes I wish she was you
I guess we never really moved on

It's really good to hear your voice saying my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak

And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel

It's funny that you're calling me tonight
And yes I've dreamt of you too
And does he know you're talking to me?
Will it start a fight?
No I don't think she has a clue

Well my girl's in the next room
Sometimes I wish she was you
I guess we never really moved on

It's really good to hear your voice saying my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak

And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel

It's really good to hear your voice saying my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak

And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel

And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel
Honey why are you calling me so late?

I am sorry

Time has a very fast flow. There is no stopping time.

"I have been thinking a lot about what all the problems are that I have forgotten to find it's solution."
This was the last thing that stroked my mind last night before I slept. It created a great change in the way I woke up today morning. It made me think over the way I had been behaving this past couple of days. I really had been more upset in the recent past.

I don't want to disclose what the reasons are.... while i can say what the solution to all of my problems are.

Don't see the problem so hard that you forget that you have to find the solution.
Happiness is not a destination in life but is a journey.
Think about happiness more than the objects which bring out happiness.
If you love a person value his/her happiness? It's going to give you intense pleasure.


Most times we tend to forget that; we feel our happiness is what makes our partners happy and we take them for granted without finding out what they like to do and this is when problems start creeping into our lives. We have to be aware change is a part and parcel of life "You never drink from The river Nile twice".
And as time passes by we change, our choices change and so does the mentality of the people around us. We tend to believe that our partners never change and we never ask the most vital questions which we asked when we first met. The most vital question are the questions which seem the most unimportant and most simple.

Not just the questions but every small things matter the most so value them..

I wish that all of you have a happy life ahead and mine may be too with my angel.

Days are getting more roughed up. I don't know why but I have a strange feeling of betrayal. It feels like everything around me isn't the same as I thought it was.

I am scared and I don't know why I am. It feels like everyone I know aren't familiar any more.
Even the ones I felt were my own don't seem to be mine anymore.

Last night I cried till late night. I don't know why but I felt like it. I guess everything I had once created had come down to take it's revenge upon me. I couldn't stop my tears for nearly an hour. I tried to figure out what was wrong but could not think about anything.

I felt an unknown guilt. It felt like it was crushing my lungs. I just wanted to speak to someone. But i was alone and I had no one to speak to. I hadn't had any food for the whole day. I felt extremely hungry but I didn't want to eat. It feels like the way I act is affecting my friends lives
in a negative way and I am so selfish that I am not doing anything about it even though I know what I am doing is not exactly correct and true. I know for sure that I don't want to hurt anyone's feelings but I don't want to be the source of pain for them. I don't want to be possessive but not being possessive is hurting me. If I am possessive it will hurt them and of all the things I don't want them to be sad.

Few years from now I didn't knew what love was. But now as I see it. It hurts. Not being able to tell someone that I want to be with them is making me miserable.

I am trapped in a room with two doors, behind each door is another room. There is exactly one person in each room and I love them very much. If I stay in the present room I die. If I move to one room the person in that room will die resulting in my death. If I move to the other room I will die and it will kill the person in the room.

Even now as I write this I am quite unsure as what to say and what to hide or what to do?

My world as I know has it's foundation shattered. My mind now is unsure as to what is right.
I am angry not on anyone else but myself.

Time is a betrayer of thought. It is what corrupts even the most serene of minds.

The First Sun Rise

The First Sun Rise
Night is near to it's end & the beginning of the new dawn marks a new future.
Shrouded in darkness one-half of earth awaits the harbinger of light.
The great God awaits readying his seventh stallion.
The giver of life and warmth Helios "The Sun".Let me tell you a small story of a time when even time was an infant.
Of a place unknown to any of you yet we all see its remains around us.
Just like a fading dream it is etched into our hearts yet we are unsure
of what it was.


Ok, so lets begin the real stuff now. But the question I ask to you is where would you like to begin a story which transcends even time?

Lets begin with the birth of the hero. The birth of a child is very common but the birth of a hero cannot be insignificant. It is marked by various events, events extraordinary in their origin but far from the understanding of a human brain. This being a tragic one even I didn't want it to happen, but it did. Lying by the side of a dead mother's body a boy was born into an unfortunate
world. A nurse picked up the boy and the child started to cry.

"The boy's Ok." She said to herself.

She took the boy and handed it to Mr. Han. He was the caretaker of an orphanage. Mr. Han was a short man, little over his forties. His head was devoid of any hair and he wore a hat all the time to cover it up. His face was almost unnoticeable except his huge plump nose which was red just like a tomato.

"Thank you Mr.Han, you are good man." she said with a sense of gratitude and debt in her eyes.

He didn't utter a word. He just took the baby and turned to leave. It was raining heavily and it was dark. Mr. Han took out his umbrella and held the baby tight to his chest. The drops hit the umbrella like bullets. It was an old one and had protected it's master from all kinds of rain for many years. A soldier refusing to go down in spite of being wounded in the battle for the love of his mother country. He moved fast, walking with large strides almost running to his home. Away from this weather, this cold and horrid weather. He almost stumbled while moving in such a hurry.
The question which arises now is what was extraordinary in this event and the answer to this question is that this boy was not born alone that day. He was born at the exact time along with 110 another children. Each of which were the same boy that was born that day. Putting it in simple words 111 avatars were born who had the same soul but many bodies and a bloody future ahead of them. I wish I could say God help them but God won't.
So keep patience because

Patience my friend is not just a virtue,
It's the need of the hour.
For what I say to you It is true.
Seeds don't become a tree just after you sow.
To eat the sweet fruit you have to let the plant grow.