I am sorry

Time has a very fast flow. There is no stopping time.

"I have been thinking a lot about what all the problems are that I have forgotten to find it's solution."
This was the last thing that stroked my mind last night before I slept. It created a great change in the way I woke up today morning. It made me think over the way I had been behaving this past couple of days. I really had been more upset in the recent past.

I don't want to disclose what the reasons are.... while i can say what the solution to all of my problems are.

Don't see the problem so hard that you forget that you have to find the solution.
Happiness is not a destination in life but is a journey.
Think about happiness more than the objects which bring out happiness.
If you love a person value his/her happiness? It's going to give you intense pleasure.


Most times we tend to forget that; we feel our happiness is what makes our partners happy and we take them for granted without finding out what they like to do and this is when problems start creeping into our lives. We have to be aware change is a part and parcel of life "You never drink from The river Nile twice".
And as time passes by we change, our choices change and so does the mentality of the people around us. We tend to believe that our partners never change and we never ask the most vital questions which we asked when we first met. The most vital question are the questions which seem the most unimportant and most simple.

Not just the questions but every small things matter the most so value them..

I wish that all of you have a happy life ahead and mine may be too with my angel.

Days are getting more roughed up. I don't know why but I have a strange feeling of betrayal. It feels like everything around me isn't the same as I thought it was.

I am scared and I don't know why I am. It feels like everyone I know aren't familiar any more.
Even the ones I felt were my own don't seem to be mine anymore.

Last night I cried till late night. I don't know why but I felt like it. I guess everything I had once created had come down to take it's revenge upon me. I couldn't stop my tears for nearly an hour. I tried to figure out what was wrong but could not think about anything.

I felt an unknown guilt. It felt like it was crushing my lungs. I just wanted to speak to someone. But i was alone and I had no one to speak to. I hadn't had any food for the whole day. I felt extremely hungry but I didn't want to eat. It feels like the way I act is affecting my friends lives
in a negative way and I am so selfish that I am not doing anything about it even though I know what I am doing is not exactly correct and true. I know for sure that I don't want to hurt anyone's feelings but I don't want to be the source of pain for them. I don't want to be possessive but not being possessive is hurting me. If I am possessive it will hurt them and of all the things I don't want them to be sad.

Few years from now I didn't knew what love was. But now as I see it. It hurts. Not being able to tell someone that I want to be with them is making me miserable.

I am trapped in a room with two doors, behind each door is another room. There is exactly one person in each room and I love them very much. If I stay in the present room I die. If I move to one room the person in that room will die resulting in my death. If I move to the other room I will die and it will kill the person in the room.

Even now as I write this I am quite unsure as what to say and what to hide or what to do?

My world as I know has it's foundation shattered. My mind now is unsure as to what is right.
I am angry not on anyone else but myself.

Time is a betrayer of thought. It is what corrupts even the most serene of minds.